5 Years Today - Can't Believe it!!

So my little bloglets, believe it or not, today is my 5 year cancerversary, and I can't believe how quickly it has come around.

I don't feel as, not low because that is not right, but on previous anniversary's I have felt a bit melancholy. Maybe it's because after the first one, I had left Edinburgh and didn't really know what I was doing in terms of a job or what direction my life was going in. I remember that 2 years ago, it came out of nowhere when I was really miserable with my job and just being dumped.....but this year I seem to be in a really good space.

Whilst I'm not going to lie, I have been running around slightly like a headless chicken with a stupid amount of work to be done - hence being so quiet on here, I finally feel like I am doing what I am meant to be doing AND enjoying it, even all the science! And Christmas wasn't really a holiday or break from uni work as I wrote essays in the car whilst we drove all over the South of England seeing relatives, but we were together, all of us as Milo was over from Singapore, so whilst not that relaxing, Christmas was a true treat.....going slightly off topic.....

I also should mention my family at this point, because without them, especially my mother who has been incredible beyond belief, it all could have been a very different story. The love and support I have had from everyone, friends, family, my current consultant, the nurses when I was in hospital, and everyone at the Teenage Cancer Trust has been simple mind blowing. TCT have enabled me to get my story out there and to have a real effect getting companies to support the charity so every young adult will get access to a TCT ward and won't have to go through what I did with my first consultant. And also Macmillan. Recently I have been asked to do a few things for them, and this morning I was recorded for Smooth Radio for a fundraising appeal thing and I remembered how they paid for my egg storage. The relief that gave me was at the time, phenomenal and it could all be a bit different if they hadn't written that cheque. I was asked to write a sentence to sum up my experience for them, and me being me, wrote a few more than one. So to sum up my 5 year cancerversary, here it is:

Incredible joy knowing the love and support I have, incredible sadness at the life I lost, ever wondering when the day will come when I can come off treatment. Losing my innocence and growing up so fast, a telephone call that changed everything forever. A whirlwind of a journey, and one I would never change if I had the choice again.

So to you all, with tears threatening to spill, thank you for all your love and support. It is you that have kept me going through it all, and the reason I continue to do so.

With all my love, smiles and laughter on this very special day,
XXX