Friday, 12 November 2010

And the great is outweighed by the silly

So I had my check up yesterday and was told some brilliant news - my platelets are up to 160 from 90.  The reason why I have been slightly less than truly excited about it is because I have been off the chemo for 2/3 weeks because of a prescription getting lost on route to the drug delivery company.  So although it's great, it will be truly great if they are still up at my next check up.  If they are, it means they are stronger and that the chemo is no longer killing them off.

Another reason why I was not my usual jubilant self when being told this is because when I got on the scales I was HORRIFIED to discover that rather than them being less than last time (over the past 3 check ups my weight has steadily crept up and I do not like this, so have started running again and have been more aware of what I've been eating) the scales showed I had put on ANOTHER 2 kilos.  This promptly put me in a shite mood and I stayed in that mood until I got home at about 5 o'clock and could cry about it.

I'm sure most if not all of you are thinking, how ridiculous, why get upset about this when the other news was so good.  The reason is because I have battled with my weight for many years, and when I was little, for those of you who didn't know me then, I was rather rotund to say the least and it's only really been since the cancer diagnosis that my weight has been what it should be.  So to discover it had gone up even more was not what I was expecting and upset me a lot.

What is nice to know that both parents were just as shocked, where as in the past when I'd weighed more than expected my mother in her ever tactful way would have said something along the lines of 'you are gorgeous just the way you are' and my father would say something along the lines of 'yes, you do need to do some more exercise', they were both amazed when I told them.  So that helped a bit.  I'm just telling myself that it's the muscle that I've built up with the running....

Anyways, enough on my weight, what else can I mention?  Not much I don't think as I did rather a long blog recently to which some delightful young gentleman commented that I 'didn't half go on' (thanks James) on my facebook post, so bearing that in mind, shall bugger off and go and do some chemistry as I'm at home for a 'guided independent study week' so should use it.

Lots of love, laughter and smiles,

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