Well my faithful little followers,
I can't believe that 4 years ago today I received 'that' phone call from the Western General Hospital in Edinburgh and this little journey began. This is not going to be a maudlin or angry post because I'm not. Today is a happy day and I can honestly tell you that as I type this in a cafe on the Tottenham Court Road, where I am doing my Biology revision, I am looking past over everything I've been through and am doing it with a smile.
I have met many wonderful people, learnt and experienced many wonderful things that I otherwise would not have. And for this, I can not be anything but grateful. I have learnt who I am, and admittedly other than the few kilos I want to lose, I am comfortable with me. I know my downfalls, and yes peeps, I am not perfect, and know it, BUT I'm still pretty fucking fab!
The past 4 years have been an opportunity to learn and develop and I think I have grasped it with both hands and have made me a better person.
I also want to say a massive thank you to you all. For all the support, encouragement and love I have had from everyone has been outstanding, and I am truly lucky to have you all in my life. And I would like to mention especially my little Mummy. Without her it would have been very different, and the wisdom she has is unbelievable, the hours she spent researching diet and alternative treatment whilst working like a maniac is truly inspiring. Also, my Daddy aka Kevla, my big sister Claudia and by little 'big' brother Milo. You have all been incredible and a better family and support group couldn't be found. I love you all with all of my heart.
So I should really get back to my revision now...and fingers crossed that this is the year when I return to 'normality' and that I get the Leukaemic rate down to 0.00%.
With so much love, laughter and smiles,
XXX
Wednesday, 19 January 2011
Monday, 10 January 2011
And the biology revision has started
Well my little bloglets,
I have all but one of my blood results so thought I'd whack them on here. Also my revision has officially started for an upcoming Biology test. You would think from my attitude towards it that it was a massively important final. It is not. In fact is is a very short, 1 hour in class test, but as I did, ummm, well..... NO work for Biology last term, well other than the essay, and go to all the lectures, I didn't go over notes etc so know sweet fuck all! Due to this am a little bit scared about the test as there is SO MUCH TO KNOW!!! All these words that I can't pronounce, let alone spell, and the cells have so many different things in them, and an animal cell is different to a plant cell and AGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! (oh, well if that question comes up, I will get one mark! Woop!) At least I understand everything, so it is just remembering it, rather than with chemistry where I had to teach myself some stuff before the test. I do however have time, so as long as I keep off the internet other than to download the lecture notes and to look things up that I don't know, I will be fine. However today I have been 'revising' since midday, it is now 3 o'clock and I have only taken notes from 2 pages of A4. I have on the other hand looked into the new camera I will be buying this week, added another couple of albums to my amazon basket, and checked facebook, ooh, about every 5 mins. Luckily for me, there are others in my position, so there are lots of things to comment on to keep me amused. Oh, and of course I am now on here.
So I should probably let you know my results and piss off to do some work....
White count, 4
Haemoglobin 12.7
Platelets 112
I don't get the PCR (Leukaemic rate) for a week which is tres annoying as it's the only one I really care about. As you can see the Platelets have dropped from 160 to 112 (little fuckers) but they are still quite high, so that's all good.
I also feel that I should mention something else at this point. I went out for a friends birthday on Saturday night and was sitting next to a guy who raises money for Leuka by doing stupid things like cycling 1,000km over the alps!! (Fucking idiot!) Now, some of you might be thinking and.... Well the mental thing is that Leuka is a charity set up by someone who was a patient at my clinic and it's a charity just for my clinic!!! How crazy is that?!?! For all the people in London to be sitting next to each other. Must have been fate! He has also met my consultant. So that all ties in nicely to this blog.
Right, really should sod off and do some more biology, the problem is that a) I can't be arsed and b) I have just had lunch, so all I want to do is sleep..... Bugger, just though of something to add, aggrrr, ummm, oh yes. Well you know how I am always cold?!? Actually that has made me think if I've moaned about it on here, maybe not...anyways, check out the AMAZING sleeping bag suit my sister got me for Christmas so I can be nice and toasty in my flat. And also, so how photographic I am. I should definitely be a model!
Lots of love, laughter and smiles as ever,
XXX
I have all but one of my blood results so thought I'd whack them on here. Also my revision has officially started for an upcoming Biology test. You would think from my attitude towards it that it was a massively important final. It is not. In fact is is a very short, 1 hour in class test, but as I did, ummm, well..... NO work for Biology last term, well other than the essay, and go to all the lectures, I didn't go over notes etc so know sweet fuck all! Due to this am a little bit scared about the test as there is SO MUCH TO KNOW!!! All these words that I can't pronounce, let alone spell, and the cells have so many different things in them, and an animal cell is different to a plant cell and AGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! (oh, well if that question comes up, I will get one mark! Woop!) At least I understand everything, so it is just remembering it, rather than with chemistry where I had to teach myself some stuff before the test. I do however have time, so as long as I keep off the internet other than to download the lecture notes and to look things up that I don't know, I will be fine. However today I have been 'revising' since midday, it is now 3 o'clock and I have only taken notes from 2 pages of A4. I have on the other hand looked into the new camera I will be buying this week, added another couple of albums to my amazon basket, and checked facebook, ooh, about every 5 mins. Luckily for me, there are others in my position, so there are lots of things to comment on to keep me amused. Oh, and of course I am now on here.
So I should probably let you know my results and piss off to do some work....
White count, 4
Haemoglobin 12.7
Platelets 112
I don't get the PCR (Leukaemic rate) for a week which is tres annoying as it's the only one I really care about. As you can see the Platelets have dropped from 160 to 112 (little fuckers) but they are still quite high, so that's all good.
I also feel that I should mention something else at this point. I went out for a friends birthday on Saturday night and was sitting next to a guy who raises money for Leuka by doing stupid things like cycling 1,000km over the alps!! (Fucking idiot!) Now, some of you might be thinking and.... Well the mental thing is that Leuka is a charity set up by someone who was a patient at my clinic and it's a charity just for my clinic!!! How crazy is that?!?! For all the people in London to be sitting next to each other. Must have been fate! He has also met my consultant. So that all ties in nicely to this blog.
Right, really should sod off and do some more biology, the problem is that a) I can't be arsed and b) I have just had lunch, so all I want to do is sleep..... Bugger, just though of something to add, aggrrr, ummm, oh yes. Well you know how I am always cold?!? Actually that has made me think if I've moaned about it on here, maybe not...anyways, check out the AMAZING sleeping bag suit my sister got me for Christmas so I can be nice and toasty in my flat. And also, so how photographic I am. I should definitely be a model!
Lots of love, laughter and smiles as ever,
XXX
Friday, 7 January 2011
Just because you are wearing wellies does NOT make you invinceble
Well Happy 2011 my little bloglets!
Can you believe that in a couple of weeks I will have been doing this blog for 4 years?!?! I can't! Time has flown by at a stupidly fast rate, and I also, to be honest without making you think that I a) don't like this blog or b) don't like you, I didn't think I would still be blogging 4 years down the line STILL waiting for the right results... Anyways, before I go off on a massively maudlin ramble I shall write about what I was going to.
So, my title today are a few words of wisdom, and had I heeded them I wouldn't have ended up falling into a pond in Oxford's University Parks on New Year's Day. However, I did not, and felt like I had superhuman powers, so behaved like an idiot and got my comeuppance. It was rather amusing for everyone else, not so much for me.....
And I'll tell you how it happened before you think I just jumped in....
I was staying with a friend from uni, Toni, in Oxford and the Stockwell's have 3 dogs and live right by Uni Parks, so we took them for a walk. I borrowed Toni's wellies as I didn't have any dog walking appropriate shoes with me. The walk took us past the ponds and I went to look at the ice on them, and thought I'd see if it would break if I placed my right foot on it. It didn't and was actually pretty thick, so I put more weight on my foot. Now this was the error. Around the edge of the pond, the ice had melted, so as I put more weight on, it didn't break, but tipped under the water and my foot slid in. So I didn't properly fall in, but on leg was soaked up to my hip and my other leg was pretty wet too. However, the plus point was, as the water was so fucking cold I moved pretty damn quickly, or more of me might have ended up in the pond.... And yes, I was the oldest of our group going for walk, and yes, I was the only one who thought it would be fun to play with the ice on the pond....
So what else was I going to mention? I had my check up yesterday and the clinic was HEAVING! I was also once again the youngest, and actually the clinic yesterday made me think of God's waiting room in Edinburgh, not because everyone had a wheelie Oxygen tank, but because it was so busy and everyone was so much older then me. I was there for 3 hours and when I got round to seeing my consultant she discovered that the blood technician for the clinic had gone to lunch and my blood hadn't even bee processed....J-O-Y!
I am going to be emailed them, so will hopefully get the today at some point. Getting weighed yesterday was another joy. I've only put on shit loads of weight over Christmas, so the diet, well my change in eating habits has officially started, and I'm running regularly again. I'm feeling very proud of myself as I went for a run today in the pissing rain, and you know what? It really wasn't that bad. Admittedly I spent a small fortune on a waterproof/keep me warm running jacket yesterday, but there is no way I will run in the rain unless I can keep my torso dry. Also, I will be marathon training this coming Autumn and Winter so need to get used to running in cold horrible weather and have clothing so I go out and run.
Now I'm sure I had other things to mention, that were witty and amusing, but everything has vacated my mind! Am off in a bit to see my Godfather and to send some healing light his way. The tumour has shrunk which is brilliant, and hopefully it will continue to do so, so his surgery is as short as possible.
I was looking at the stats to this blog and have discovered that people read this not only in the UK, but the USA, Russia, Latvia, Spain, China, Germany, France, Poland, and Sweden. So a massive thank you to all who read it who I don't know. I do appreciate it, and as always, please leave comments.
Lots of love, laughter and light,
XXX
Can you believe that in a couple of weeks I will have been doing this blog for 4 years?!?! I can't! Time has flown by at a stupidly fast rate, and I also, to be honest without making you think that I a) don't like this blog or b) don't like you, I didn't think I would still be blogging 4 years down the line STILL waiting for the right results... Anyways, before I go off on a massively maudlin ramble I shall write about what I was going to.
So, my title today are a few words of wisdom, and had I heeded them I wouldn't have ended up falling into a pond in Oxford's University Parks on New Year's Day. However, I did not, and felt like I had superhuman powers, so behaved like an idiot and got my comeuppance. It was rather amusing for everyone else, not so much for me.....
And I'll tell you how it happened before you think I just jumped in....
I was staying with a friend from uni, Toni, in Oxford and the Stockwell's have 3 dogs and live right by Uni Parks, so we took them for a walk. I borrowed Toni's wellies as I didn't have any dog walking appropriate shoes with me. The walk took us past the ponds and I went to look at the ice on them, and thought I'd see if it would break if I placed my right foot on it. It didn't and was actually pretty thick, so I put more weight on my foot. Now this was the error. Around the edge of the pond, the ice had melted, so as I put more weight on, it didn't break, but tipped under the water and my foot slid in. So I didn't properly fall in, but on leg was soaked up to my hip and my other leg was pretty wet too. However, the plus point was, as the water was so fucking cold I moved pretty damn quickly, or more of me might have ended up in the pond.... And yes, I was the oldest of our group going for walk, and yes, I was the only one who thought it would be fun to play with the ice on the pond....
So what else was I going to mention? I had my check up yesterday and the clinic was HEAVING! I was also once again the youngest, and actually the clinic yesterday made me think of God's waiting room in Edinburgh, not because everyone had a wheelie Oxygen tank, but because it was so busy and everyone was so much older then me. I was there for 3 hours and when I got round to seeing my consultant she discovered that the blood technician for the clinic had gone to lunch and my blood hadn't even bee processed....J-O-Y!
I am going to be emailed them, so will hopefully get the today at some point. Getting weighed yesterday was another joy. I've only put on shit loads of weight over Christmas, so the diet, well my change in eating habits has officially started, and I'm running regularly again. I'm feeling very proud of myself as I went for a run today in the pissing rain, and you know what? It really wasn't that bad. Admittedly I spent a small fortune on a waterproof/keep me warm running jacket yesterday, but there is no way I will run in the rain unless I can keep my torso dry. Also, I will be marathon training this coming Autumn and Winter so need to get used to running in cold horrible weather and have clothing so I go out and run.
Now I'm sure I had other things to mention, that were witty and amusing, but everything has vacated my mind! Am off in a bit to see my Godfather and to send some healing light his way. The tumour has shrunk which is brilliant, and hopefully it will continue to do so, so his surgery is as short as possible.
I was looking at the stats to this blog and have discovered that people read this not only in the UK, but the USA, Russia, Latvia, Spain, China, Germany, France, Poland, and Sweden. So a massive thank you to all who read it who I don't know. I do appreciate it, and as always, please leave comments.
Lots of love, laughter and light,
XXX
Tuesday, 21 December 2010
Wow - what a year
Well I can't believe that 2010 is nearly up, and fuck, what a year it has been!!! I've gone from employed and having a quarter life crisis not knowing what I want to do, so resigned from my job. Was unemployed for a bit, then employed again and now a student (again!). That is a seriously short way to sum up the year considering it has involved a court case, moving flat, applying to Uni, becoming too old for the Teenage Cancer Trust (shhhh), going to 11 Downing Street, meeting Dave Grohl (ahhh, swoon, ahh, swoon, blush, blush, blush!) having my first TCT buddy die, having a Healing Journey aka my cancer course die (this only happened in the last week so more on this in a bit), having my Godfather diagnosed with cancer, Grandfather was pretty ill, I'm sure it was cancer but don't want to say it with authority in case it wasn't....but I'm 99% is was....yes, I'm a shite grandchild....my platelets being normal for the first time in nearly 4 years, was in a relationship (very briefly, and don't think I mentioned it on here) for the first time in ooooh, a bloody long time, hang on and I'll work it out.......2 years, and am now not (and haven't been for nearly a year), little brother moving to Singapore for 3 years...so it's been quite a year! I've also been better at doing this blog, started video blogs for jimmyteens.tv and everything else I can't think of at this moment and I've probably mentioned anything of great significance on here anyways.
So at the moment I am at the rentals for a couple of weeks over Christmas and til New Years (still don't know what to do, suggestions anyone??) which is a good thing because when I was on my home on Saturday I left snow in London and was told with slight smugness from my Mother that there wasn't any at home. Well, that wasn't the case 3 hours later. My father and I nearly got stuck in the snow coming home...thank you kind resident of Brantham who gave the car a shove! I think there was something mental like 6 inches in half an hour. Which to be honest made me VERY excited as I LOVE the snow and there hasn't been enough in London to satisfy my love for snow. It now has been, and to make it even better, lots of the snow has stayed perfect and NOT walked on or turned into snowmen etc which makes me even happier. I HATE it when the snow gets ruined. On Sunday we had to walk to the local shop over snowy fields (cue 'ahhh') as the car was snowed in. On the walk I had a phone call from a Healing Journey friend (it's the course I've been doing for coming up for 2 years run at the local Macmillan funded (I think) centre in Clapham). The course is amazing and technically over, but a few of us from my course and the group who did it before us were not ready for it to be over, so one of the facilitators from my course very kindly gives up an evening of his time once a month and we still meet. Anyways one of the group, a member from my course, had breast cancer and it came back in her bones and spread to her liver etc and I knew everything wasn't going brilliantly, but she was so strong and brave and positive and upbeat and never let on how bad it was, and to my great sadness Liane rang me to tell me that she had died last week. It was a shock as I didn't think things were that bad, but on the flip side Neelam died being strong and still looking well and it was quick, and she didn't have to suffer for a long time. Cancer is really shit. I've had enough of people dying or being diagnosed with cancer. And I'm feeling a bit miserable about it especially as my 4 year anniversary is coming up in less than a month.
I can't believe it's nearly 4 years, especially as I thought it would all be over by now. And you know what, I don't care about Christmas presents and Christmas cards etc etc etc If I could have one present for the rest of my life (well maybe not the rest of my life, maybe the next couple of years....) it would be for my check up on the 4th January to show that the Leukaemic rate is 0.00%, my platelets are 140 and I can start my 2 year count down to coming off the chemo. I've had enough. Sorry for the rather maudlin self indulgent rant, especially as I like this to be up beat and positive, sometimes times you just have to say it as it is, and I would like to have my life back completely as mine.
Can't really think if anything else. Got 68% in my maths coursework which I was amazed by! I don't think I've ever had that high a score in maths in my life!! I also got 100% in a physics thing, but all the answers were on google - we were allowed to use it, I wasn't cheating, so at least all my hours procrastinating on google has paid off and I'm good at finding out info!!
Right, think I should bugger off now as I should do some more of my final piece of Physics coursework before I start Biology revision, woop woop!!
Lots of love, smiles, laughter and healing light for those who need a bit of it over Christmas,
XXX
So at the moment I am at the rentals for a couple of weeks over Christmas and til New Years (still don't know what to do, suggestions anyone??) which is a good thing because when I was on my home on Saturday I left snow in London and was told with slight smugness from my Mother that there wasn't any at home. Well, that wasn't the case 3 hours later. My father and I nearly got stuck in the snow coming home...thank you kind resident of Brantham who gave the car a shove! I think there was something mental like 6 inches in half an hour. Which to be honest made me VERY excited as I LOVE the snow and there hasn't been enough in London to satisfy my love for snow. It now has been, and to make it even better, lots of the snow has stayed perfect and NOT walked on or turned into snowmen etc which makes me even happier. I HATE it when the snow gets ruined. On Sunday we had to walk to the local shop over snowy fields (cue 'ahhh') as the car was snowed in. On the walk I had a phone call from a Healing Journey friend (it's the course I've been doing for coming up for 2 years run at the local Macmillan funded (I think) centre in Clapham). The course is amazing and technically over, but a few of us from my course and the group who did it before us were not ready for it to be over, so one of the facilitators from my course very kindly gives up an evening of his time once a month and we still meet. Anyways one of the group, a member from my course, had breast cancer and it came back in her bones and spread to her liver etc and I knew everything wasn't going brilliantly, but she was so strong and brave and positive and upbeat and never let on how bad it was, and to my great sadness Liane rang me to tell me that she had died last week. It was a shock as I didn't think things were that bad, but on the flip side Neelam died being strong and still looking well and it was quick, and she didn't have to suffer for a long time. Cancer is really shit. I've had enough of people dying or being diagnosed with cancer. And I'm feeling a bit miserable about it especially as my 4 year anniversary is coming up in less than a month.
I can't believe it's nearly 4 years, especially as I thought it would all be over by now. And you know what, I don't care about Christmas presents and Christmas cards etc etc etc If I could have one present for the rest of my life (well maybe not the rest of my life, maybe the next couple of years....) it would be for my check up on the 4th January to show that the Leukaemic rate is 0.00%, my platelets are 140 and I can start my 2 year count down to coming off the chemo. I've had enough. Sorry for the rather maudlin self indulgent rant, especially as I like this to be up beat and positive, sometimes times you just have to say it as it is, and I would like to have my life back completely as mine.
Can't really think if anything else. Got 68% in my maths coursework which I was amazed by! I don't think I've ever had that high a score in maths in my life!! I also got 100% in a physics thing, but all the answers were on google - we were allowed to use it, I wasn't cheating, so at least all my hours procrastinating on google has paid off and I'm good at finding out info!!
Right, think I should bugger off now as I should do some more of my final piece of Physics coursework before I start Biology revision, woop woop!!
Lots of love, smiles, laughter and healing light for those who need a bit of it over Christmas,
XXX
Thursday, 2 December 2010
Pictures
So I was going to do a massive blog about my last check up and all things since (because I have a Chemistry exam on Monday...eek and am procrastinating rather than revising!!!!!) and have just seen that I've already done it....arse.
But I can mention some new stuff:
1) Have had all my hair cut off....no jokes, it's like a boys but with a long fringe.
2) I feautre on the Coffee Republic website, hence being famous.
I don't know why it is sideways...it won't let me rotate it..... If you want to have a better look, here is the link:
http://www.coffeerepublic.
3) I went up to the jimmyteens.tv studio to take part in a live debate last week about fertility, have a look:
http://www.jimmyteens.tv/2010/11/25/the-debate-fertility/
4) Ummm, shit, have forgotten ther next one, aghhh, ummmm, shit....ummm...... I have remembered!! My first video blog has been watched over 200 times!! I can't believe it!!! So a massive thank you to everyone who has watched it. And if you haven't, go and have a look. www.jimmyteens.tv and search katie ruane.
5) For those of you who live in Yorkshire, I believe that there are pics of me in the Yorksire Building Society branches. Please can someone go and have a look and let me know. Also take a pic and send it to me. Thank you!
6) London has snow!!!!!!!! Woop woop!!! And I'm very upset about all the people I know in Yorshire who have LOADS and are moaning about it. Embrace it, love it and send it down here!!!
Opposite my flat...ahhh, isn't is pretty??!!
7) Some very sad news, I am officially too old for the Teenage Cancer Trust as I am now 26, but shhhhhh, don't tell them!!!!
8) Right, should probably go and do some Chemistry revision so I don't fail as that would be a serious bugger.
9) My iPhone is playing up and don't think I can last 15-28 days with a loan phone that has no internet/email/facebook/apps etc. That is a very depressing thought....
10) Topman has released AMAZING snoods, bobble hats and scats (a hat and scarf combined) and they are only £16 and a fiver goes to TCT, so if you need presents for people, GO BUY THEM!!! And ignore that fact that they are sold in Topman, I wear mine with pride and contrary to popular opinion, I am not a man!!! And here's the link so you can have a look at them:
http://www.teenagecancertrust.org/get-involved/as-a-company/our-partners/topman/
Lots of love, laughter and smiles AND SNOW,
XXX
But I can mention some new stuff:
1) Have had all my hair cut off....no jokes, it's like a boys but with a long fringe.
2) I feautre on the Coffee Republic website, hence being famous.
http://www.coffeerepublic.
3) I went up to the jimmyteens.tv studio to take part in a live debate last week about fertility, have a look:
http://www.jimmyteens.tv/2010/11/25/the-debate-fertility/
4) Ummm, shit, have forgotten ther next one, aghhh, ummmm, shit....ummm...... I have remembered!! My first video blog has been watched over 200 times!! I can't believe it!!! So a massive thank you to everyone who has watched it. And if you haven't, go and have a look. www.jimmyteens.tv and search katie ruane.
5) For those of you who live in Yorkshire, I believe that there are pics of me in the Yorksire Building Society branches. Please can someone go and have a look and let me know. Also take a pic and send it to me. Thank you!
6) London has snow!!!!!!!! Woop woop!!! And I'm very upset about all the people I know in Yorshire who have LOADS and are moaning about it. Embrace it, love it and send it down here!!!
7) Some very sad news, I am officially too old for the Teenage Cancer Trust as I am now 26, but shhhhhh, don't tell them!!!!
8) Right, should probably go and do some Chemistry revision so I don't fail as that would be a serious bugger.
9) My iPhone is playing up and don't think I can last 15-28 days with a loan phone that has no internet/email/facebook/apps etc. That is a very depressing thought....
10) Topman has released AMAZING snoods, bobble hats and scats (a hat and scarf combined) and they are only £16 and a fiver goes to TCT, so if you need presents for people, GO BUY THEM!!! And ignore that fact that they are sold in Topman, I wear mine with pride and contrary to popular opinion, I am not a man!!! And here's the link so you can have a look at them:
http://www.teenagecancertrust.org/get-involved/as-a-company/our-partners/topman/
Lots of love, laughter and smiles AND SNOW,
XXX
Friday, 12 November 2010
I forgot....
New video is up on jimmyteen.tv:
http://www.jimmyteens.tv/2010/11/10/introducing-the-ruanes-part-2/
Enjoy!!
XXX
http://www.jimmyteens.tv/2010/11/10/introducing-the-ruanes-part-2/
Enjoy!!
XXX
And the great is outweighed by the silly
So I had my check up yesterday and was told some brilliant news - my platelets are up to 160 from 90. The reason why I have been slightly less than truly excited about it is because I have been off the chemo for 2/3 weeks because of a prescription getting lost on route to the drug delivery company. So although it's great, it will be truly great if they are still up at my next check up. If they are, it means they are stronger and that the chemo is no longer killing them off.
Another reason why I was not my usual jubilant self when being told this is because when I got on the scales I was HORRIFIED to discover that rather than them being less than last time (over the past 3 check ups my weight has steadily crept up and I do not like this, so have started running again and have been more aware of what I've been eating) the scales showed I had put on ANOTHER 2 kilos. This promptly put me in a shite mood and I stayed in that mood until I got home at about 5 o'clock and could cry about it.
I'm sure most if not all of you are thinking, how ridiculous, why get upset about this when the other news was so good. The reason is because I have battled with my weight for many years, and when I was little, for those of you who didn't know me then, I was rather rotund to say the least and it's only really been since the cancer diagnosis that my weight has been what it should be. So to discover it had gone up even more was not what I was expecting and upset me a lot.
What is nice to know that both parents were just as shocked, where as in the past when I'd weighed more than expected my mother in her ever tactful way would have said something along the lines of 'you are gorgeous just the way you are' and my father would say something along the lines of 'yes, you do need to do some more exercise', they were both amazed when I told them. So that helped a bit. I'm just telling myself that it's the muscle that I've built up with the running....
Anyways, enough on my weight, what else can I mention? Not much I don't think as I did rather a long blog recently to which some delightful young gentleman commented that I 'didn't half go on' (thanks James) on my facebook post, so bearing that in mind, shall bugger off and go and do some chemistry as I'm at home for a 'guided independent study week' so should use it.
Lots of love, laughter and smiles,
XXX
Another reason why I was not my usual jubilant self when being told this is because when I got on the scales I was HORRIFIED to discover that rather than them being less than last time (over the past 3 check ups my weight has steadily crept up and I do not like this, so have started running again and have been more aware of what I've been eating) the scales showed I had put on ANOTHER 2 kilos. This promptly put me in a shite mood and I stayed in that mood until I got home at about 5 o'clock and could cry about it.
I'm sure most if not all of you are thinking, how ridiculous, why get upset about this when the other news was so good. The reason is because I have battled with my weight for many years, and when I was little, for those of you who didn't know me then, I was rather rotund to say the least and it's only really been since the cancer diagnosis that my weight has been what it should be. So to discover it had gone up even more was not what I was expecting and upset me a lot.
What is nice to know that both parents were just as shocked, where as in the past when I'd weighed more than expected my mother in her ever tactful way would have said something along the lines of 'you are gorgeous just the way you are' and my father would say something along the lines of 'yes, you do need to do some more exercise', they were both amazed when I told them. So that helped a bit. I'm just telling myself that it's the muscle that I've built up with the running....
Anyways, enough on my weight, what else can I mention? Not much I don't think as I did rather a long blog recently to which some delightful young gentleman commented that I 'didn't half go on' (thanks James) on my facebook post, so bearing that in mind, shall bugger off and go and do some chemistry as I'm at home for a 'guided independent study week' so should use it.
Lots of love, laughter and smiles,
XXX
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